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We all have them.
With sites like Facebook, Twitter, Google+, etc, we can share them. A lot.
Not everyone agrees.
Not everyone can agree to disagree.

MY personal blog. My posts on MY page, are just that MY POSTS. It's how I feel. It's what I think. You don't have to agree with it. If I don't name a name but what to shout and yell that I don't want you to try and contact me, no harm. Not eveyone can be "good" all the time. And you know what? MY MORELS AND VALUES ARE DIFFERENT THAN YOURS! I'm not going to forgive if I feel like I don't have to. I'm not going to back down when I AM ENTITLED TO EXPRESS MY OPINION AND BACK IT UP WITH FACTS! If you can't handle that sort of debateful conversation, don't start one up. Don't agree with my opinion? Express it, sure, but I"M NOT GOING TO CHANGE MY MIND! And you can't make me feel bad for wanting to express myself. I try not to tell someone they are stupid for believing in something, even if they are misinformed. I will show them a link to an article that supports my opinion, then if that's not convincing I might agree to disagree. A disagreement doesn't have to end a friendship. But, you know what? It does. Some people don't know when to back down. I've missed out on the chance to get to know a lot of people because they don't like one, maybe two, of my opinions. That hasn't deffered me from getting to know some people I want to get to know. That's not fair! I'm worth getting to know. I'm opinionated. I'm sarcastic. I'm mean. But I'm worth getting to know. I can't help but remember being like 6-years-old and my mom, three times taller than me, towering over me in a firm voice saying, "Life isn't fair." And it isn't fair. It's not fair that I have cut people out of my life, and now my sister is pleding with me to change my ways. That my opinions offend her. That I'm doing something wrong. Fuck all of it. I'll stand by my sister's decisions. Like getting married. Going to school. I mean, I was the first person she called during an emotional break down... But now I'm not being supportive becuase I have my opinion and I want to vent and bitch and yell at the top of my lungs about a frustrating situation?! I didn't type out anyone's name. I didn't post it on her wall. I didn't even imply that I was involving her in the conversation. But it offends her that I don't want to talk to someone who made me cry for two days and didn't talk to ANY of us for years? I'm just suppose to undo the 5 years of work I put into surrounding myslef with the few people I can actually trust and feel comfortable with, just because I have nothing nice to say to a phantom that haunts my past? I don't have anything nice to say to that person, so I told her that I don't have anything nice to say, and would rather not say anything at all. I'm trying to be polite as possible, when in my head I'm making a list of all the terrible things I want to yell at this girl. All the heart ache not only inflicted on me, but on my sister too. All the doubt and trust issues I have fought with for the past 5 years. It chases after me. I go weeks without thinking about, then there it is, tossed in my face. Hitting me in the back of my head. Sliding off my face and into my bra. It pops up in dreams, messages on Facebook, and in sharing a life's worth of history with my fiance. So, life isn't fair. I have big girl panties. But you know... Now I don't want to exist. I just want to curl up in bed and wallow in my failures. Life is just one huge crash of a down after a tiny, unnoticable up. Over and over. But we push on, hoping that one big up will plateau and we won't fall back down again. Maybe I just need to make new friends? I don't know, but I know that I'm not wrong here. I get to feel the way I feel, and everyone who tells me that is wrong can suck it.

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Just try to keep in mind that there ARE people out there who aren't going to stab you in the back, especially not because of a difference in opinion. If everyone believed the same thing this world would be even more lost and boring than it already is. Diversity is good! There's no reason to hurt people or cut them out of your life because you don't happen to agree with them, and people who do that aren't worth our time anyway.

I know we didn't meet all that long ago but I want you to know that I will NEVER treat you poorly because your opinion differs from mine. We may debate about it for days but it will never end in cut ties. I'm done with friends that find themselves superior to me or are willing to simply walk away because they think differently. I'm not that kind of person, I can tell that you're not, and I think that means we'll get along just fine. :)

Don't feel too down, Bobby. I may not know the situation you're in fully but I know that idiots and people who've hurt you aren't worth the time or the effort of crying over. It doesn't make it any easier not to but it's just true.

I hope things start looking up for you. And stick by your opinions, whether or not I agree with them! <3

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